Depression is debilitating
Depression hurts your heart
Depression hurts your body and your mind
Depression is a grand deceiver
...it lies to you about who you are and how you feel...
Depression loves misery and it basks in darkness
Depression is loneliness
Depression is an aching heart filled with regrets
Depression is a anchor tied to your legs and you are tossed overboard, falling ever further from the light and closer and closer to the abyss, helpless to stop it as you are crushed by the weight of the depths.
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Re: Depression
Posted: Fri Jun 02, 2023 5:31 pm
by The Wicker Man
The LDS tell me that I jumped up and down for joy about being born on earth. I know that's not true in my case. The Savior had to talk me into it. That is why my pb says that, "you and the Savior talked about your life many times before you were born". Four strangers in my life upon first seeing me declared that I am not like anyone else they'd ever seen. One said that I am not even human. I don't belong on this earth. I don't function well here. I don't think like humans think. My pb says that I lived in the Father's house and that I am considered a young spirit. The patriarch whispered to me on the way out that he was honored to have given me, a dignitary from heaven, my pb. My pb says that I am to help gather Israel both the living and the dead.
But in the meantime I feel nothing, nothing except depression. I'm here to do a job. Whenever the time gets here I will receive the name and power of life. My pb says that I am to be determined to repeat the Savior's miracles. That will include raising the dead! So putting it all together.
For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first:
Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the LORD in the air: and so shall we ever be with the LORD.
How I have capitalized it is more correct. It is the same here.
Behold, I will send my messenger, and he shall prepare the way before me: and the Lord, whom ye seek, shall suddenly come to his temple, even the messenger of the covenant, whom ye delight in: behold, he shall come, saith the LORD of hosts.
I didn't place all the dominos (data points). I can't help the picture (conclusion) they make when they all fall down (are considered). I'm just along for the ride.
Re: Depression
Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 12:25 am
by Finrock
The Wicker Man wrote: ↑Fri Jun 02, 2023 5:31 pm
The LDS tell me that I jumped up and down for joy about being born on earth. I know that's not true in my case.
Funny and I laughed out loud because I think I was saying something similar or at least in the same vein to juliet a few days ago. I mean, as far as I can remember, which is nothing, I didn't choose to come down to the existence I ended up experiencing so far and as far as I am concerned, please, next time I'll pass if there be a next time. So I let God be responsible for things I have had no control over and man some of the hells I've created on my own might have been worse than the hells I was tossed in to at birth!
Anyway, struck me as funny in an understanding way, not mocking.
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Re: Depression
Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 11:58 am
by High Spy
An understandable feeling after total marring into oblivion on said fascist forum.
Me too came by my name in an unusual way, have an unusual Patriarchal Blessing and have experienced endless miracle once I learned the keys to their recognition. 38 and 57 are consecutive multiples of 19, and Job 1919 describes clumpy dirt to a tee. Riding out to my unusual AK address that was surprising supplied we heard tales of the mammoth snowfall while we’ve been away, listening to TheSpyFm with a transistor radio. The Spy that almost got the world blowed up has come full circle.
High Spy wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 11:58 am
An understandable feeling after total marring into oblivion on said fascist forum.
Me too came by my name in an unusual way, have an unusual Patriarchal Blessing and have experienced endless miracle once I learned the keys to their recognition. 38 and 57 are consecutive multiples of 19, and Job 1919 describes clumpy dirt to a tee. Riding out to my unusual AK address that was surprising supplied we heard tales of the mammoth snowfall while we’ve been away, listening to TheSpyFm with a transistor radio. The Spy that almost got the world blowed up has come full circle.
Purple, but not Full Circle.
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Re: Depression
Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 4:07 pm
by Finrock
38 x 2 = 76
I was born 1976
357 became significant after a crazy experience with unexplainable coincidences...
38 57 have now become indicators of "right place, right time" and they just show up in amazing timing to circumstances in my life, without consideration, without thought, and even when explicitly trying to avoid and deny, yet, things keep occurring in relationships to 57 and 38 (which became significant to me because of a dream that repeated itself over and over again and I would wake up and remember the dream fall asleep again and see the dream again and I have not had dreams I remembered in a long time) and 57 is associated with Michael Sherwin and I can't deny what the Spirit spoke, the shift in my heart as a result of Spirit while I was resistant and tried to find fault, yet, like Paul on the road to Damascus, or Alma the Younger, despite fighting against God, yet He changed my heart and I cannot deny that shift. It was subtle yet profound.
And as I've exercised faith I've been blessed and have received knowledge and comfort at times, even though there has been suffering and sorrows and pain of all sorts, yet it's a suffering with a purpose, a purpose that sustains me even when in the depths, supernatural survival and supernatural thriving.
This kind of turned in to a stream of consciousness post but hopefully fruitful.
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Re: Depression
Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 7:06 pm
by The Wicker Man
Also 19 + 57 = 76
Re: Depression
Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 1:22 am
by High Spy
Finrock wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 4:07 pm
38 x 2 = 76
I was born 1976
357 became significant after a crazy experience with unexplainable coincidences...
38 57 have now become indicators of "right place, right time" and they just show up in amazing timing to circumstances in my life, without consideration, without thought, and even when explicitly trying to avoid and deny, yet, things keep occurring in relationships to 57 and 38 (which became significant to me because of a dream that repeated itself over and over again and I would wake up and remember the dream fall asleep again and see the dream again and I have not had dreams I remembered in a long time) and 57 is associated with Michael Sherwin and I can't deny what the Spirit spoke, the shift in my heart as a result of Spirit while I was resistant and tried to find fault, yet, like Paul on the road to Damascus, or Alma the Younger, despite fighting against God, yet He changed my heart and I cannot deny that shift. It was subtle yet profound.
And as I've exercised faith I've been blessed and have received knowledge and comfort at times, even though there has been suffering and sorrows and pain of all sorts, yet it's a suffering with a purpose, a purpose that sustains me even when in the depths, supernatural survival and supernatural thriving.
This kind of turned in to a stream of consciousness post but hopefully fruitful.
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Last month in Utah I found a bicentennial quarter at the laundromat. Then yesterday my wife checked our odometer to restart our insurance in Alaska, and it was 57 thousand and small change. My house number here ends with 2448 which may be seen as the date of a future eclipse. Oh well, it made for an easy choice when it came to naming our WiFi.
Re: Depression
Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 4:22 pm
by Finrock
The Wicker Man wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 7:06 pm
Also 19 + 57 = 76
Hadn't thought of that one yet. Cool.
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Re: Depression
Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2023 11:04 pm
by Silver Pie
Depression sucks. It's very difficult to escape from.
Re: Depression
Posted: Mon Feb 26, 2024 2:48 am
by High Spy
Finrock wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 4:07 pm
38 x 2 = 76
I was born 1976
357 became significant after a crazy experience with unexplainable coincidences...
38 57 have now become indicators of "right place, right time" and they just show up in amazing timing to circumstances in my life, without consideration, without thought, and even when explicitly trying to avoid and deny, yet, things keep occurring in relationships to 57 and 38 (which became significant to me because of a dream that repeated itself over and over again and I would wake up and remember the dream fall asleep again and see the dream again and I have not had dreams I remembered in a long time) and 57 is associated with Michael Sherwin and I can't deny what the Spirit spoke, the shift in my heart as a result of Spirit while I was resistant and tried to find fault, yet, like Paul on the road to Damascus, or Alma the Younger, despite fighting against God, yet He changed my heart and I cannot deny that shift. It was subtle yet profound.
And as I've exercised faith I've been blessed and have received knowledge and comfort at times, even though there has been suffering and sorrows and pain of all sorts, yet it's a suffering with a purpose, a purpose that sustains me even when in the depths, supernatural survival and supernatural thriving.
This kind of turned in to a stream of consciousness post but hopefully fruitful.
Maybe strange is a subset of weird, what do you think.
In my opinion a 57 (or any other number) to be an anomaly it has to connect to something. Maybe even in a weird way. Like the ship with hull number 57 that encoded my name. And it was a destroyer and it shoots polished arrows. And the only letter not used to encode my name was a "t" which can be understood in context as being an endorsement of the Cross. And the fact that I was led to search for it in the first place. Or being told to look for a particular heavenly sign and being told that I already know what date to check in 1957. Or seeing a sign of a white stallion and then seeing the address on the mailbox is 5757. Or asking the Spirit to send a demonstration and it just happens to be a 5.7 earthquake that landed Moroni's trumpet. And then when you said that it was made out of macaroni to immediately discover the Euler Mascheroni constant that is called the macaroni constant and that Mascheroni also encodes my name. And that the constant is 0.577. And that it is the God constant because it is a number that "knows things". That is part of all branches of mathematics. And that becomes one heaven of an anomaly. Or the 8.1 by Mt. Michael that was 57 miles deep and its location encoded my birthdate. So when I see a 57 in the wild it has to make a connection for me to think of it as an anomaly. I'm not complaining. I'm just saying how it is for me. Your intuition may be more in tune than mine!
Oh I see the O-ring looks like a C, C for Christ? Okay then it can be added as a data point. At least it did not look like a D for Devil.
Re: Depression
Posted: Sat May 18, 2024 7:35 pm
by BeNotDeceived
The Wicker Man wrote: ↑Sat May 11, 2024 9:32 pm Oh I see the O-ring looks like a C, C for Christ? Okay then it can be added as a data point. At least it did not look like a D for Devil.
I don’t believe in intuition, but apparently intuition believes in us.
They’re little purple o rings that I bought on ebay to customize some GPRs (Gravity Powered Rockets) that are prolly better described as GPRSPs (Gravity Powered Rocket Shaped Projectiles). Today another package is due on a street named after a car brand. My neighborhood has a similar street naming scheme. Purple & Circle serve as keywords for anyone interested in learning about my Arctic Circle experience that didn’t involve a raspberry milkshake.
Re: Depression
Posted: Sun May 19, 2024 5:52 am
by High Spy
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Re: Depression
Posted: Mon May 20, 2024 2:01 pm
by Valo
Sometimes, in a part of my mind, a voice tells me I'm a fool for allowing my heart to feel hope.
I read a lot about
Terrible things that people have done to each other
You just cannot
Even imagine it, it's so awful!
So you don't wanna be someone like that
Now do you have a reason to be?
Yes, you have lots of reasons to be!
God, there's reasons to be resentful about your existence
Everyone you know is gonna die
You too! And there's gonna be a fair bit of pain along the way
And lots of it's gonna be unfair
It's like, yeah!
No wonder you're resentful
It's like act it out, see what happens
You make everything you're complaining about
Infinitely worse!
There's this idea that hell is a bottomless pit
And that's because no matter how bad it is
Some stupid son of a bitch like you could figure out a way to make it a lot worse!
That's what life is like
It's suffering!
That's what the religious people have always said
[Chorus]
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
What do you do in the face of that suffering?
Try to reduce it!
Start with yourself
What good are you?
Get yourself together for Christ sakes! So that when your father dies, you're not whining away in the corner, and you can help plan the funeral
And you can stand up solidly
So that people can rely on you
That's better, don't be a damn victim
Course, you're a victim!
Jesus, obviously!
Put yourself together
You know how to do that
You know what's wrong with you
If you'll admit it
You know there's a few things you could like polish up a little bit
That you might even be able to manage in your insufficient present condition
So you might shine yourself off a little bit, and then your eyes will be a little more open
Then you can shine yourself up a little bit more
And then maybe you could bring your family together instead of having them be the hateful, spiteful, neurotic, in-fighting bastards you're doomed to spend Christmas with
[Chorus]
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
So, then you fix yourself up a little bit
Kind of humbly because you know, God
You're a fixer-upper if there ever was one
And then you gotta figure out how to make peace with your idiot brother
And probably not because he's just as dumb as you, so how the hell are you gonna manage that?
So then maybe you get somewhere that way, and your family starts functioning, and you find out that kind of relieved a little bit of suffering, although it reduced the opportunities for spiteful revenge and that's kind of a pain in the neck
And so, when you get your family together a little bit, and you're a little clued in then, at least a bit because you've done something difficult that's actually difficult
You're a little wiser, so then maybe you could put a tentative finger out beyond the family
And try to change some little thing without wrecking it
Our society is complex
And we teach our students that they can just fix it
It's like go fix the military helicopter, and see how far you get with that
You're like a Chimp with a wrench, whack! “Oh look, it's better!”
It's like no! It's not better!
Things are complicated and to fix things is really hard
And you have to be like a golden tool to fix things
And you're not!
And that's the other message of the West
How do you overcome the suffering of life?
Just be a better person
[Chorus]
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
[Chorus]
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
Life is, life is suffering
Yes! (Watcha gonna do about it?)
[Instrumetal Bridge]
That's how you do it
Well, that's hard
It takes responsibility
And I think, you know, if you said to someone
Do you wanna have a meaningful life?
Everything you do matters
That's the definition of a meaningful life
But everything you do matters!
You gonna have to carry that with you
Or do you want to just forget about the whole meaning thing and
Then you don't have any responsibility because who the hell cares and
You can wander through life, doing whatever you want gratifying impulsive desires
For however useful that's going to be, and you're stuck in meaningless but you don't have any responsibility, which one do you want?
Well, ask yourself
Which one are you pursuing?
And you'll find very rapidly that it isn't the majority of your soul that's pursuing the whole meaning thing, because look what you have to do to do that, you have to take on the fact that life is suffering you have to put yourself together
In the face of that
Well, that's hard!
Christ was made 'cause people couldn't even do it
I'm stunned everyday when I go outside and it isn't a riot
With everything burning
[Outro by Akira The Don]
Watcha gonna do about it?
Life is, life is suffering
Watcha gonna do about it?
Finrock wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 4:07 pm
38 x 2 = 76
I was born 1976
357 became significant after a crazy experience with unexplainable coincidences...
38 57 have now become indicators of "right place, right time" and they just show up in amazing timing to circumstances in my life, without consideration, without thought, and even when explicitly trying to avoid and deny, yet, things keep occurring in relationships to 57 and 38 (which became significant to me because of a dream that repeated itself over and over again and I would wake up and remember the dream fall asleep again and see the dream again and I have not had dreams I remembered in a long time) and 57 is associated with Michael Sherwin and I can't deny what the Spirit spoke, the shift in my heart as a result of Spirit while I was resistant and tried to find fault, yet, like Paul on the road to Damascus, or Alma the Younger, despite fighting against God, yet He changed my heart and I cannot deny that shift. It was subtle yet profound.
And as I've exercised faith I've been blessed and have received knowledge and comfort at times, even though there has been suffering and sorrows and pain of all sorts, yet it's a suffering with a purpose, a purpose that sustains me even when in the depths, supernatural survival and supernatural thriving.
This kind of turned in to a stream of consciousness post but hopefully fruitful.
...
Last month in Utah I found a bicentennial quarter at the laundromat. Then yesterday my wife checked our odometer to restart our insurance in Alaska, and it was 57 thousand and small change. My house number here ends with 2448 which may be seen as the date of a future eclipse. Oh well, it made for an easy choice when it came to naming our WiFi.
Verse 1]
It was a beautiful day, the sun beat down
I had the radio on, I was drivin'
Trees went by, me and Del were singin' little Runaway
I was flyin'
[Chorus]
Yeah, runnin' down a dream that never would come to me
Workin' on a mystery, goin' wherever it leads
Runnin' down a dream
[Verse 2]
I felt so good, like anything was possible
Hit cruise control and rubbed my eyes
The last three days the rain was unstoppable
It was always cold, no sunshine
[Chorus]
Yeah, runnin' down a dream that never would come to me
Workin' on a mystery, goin' wherever it leads
Runnin' down a dream
[Bridge]
I rolled on, the sky grew dark
I put the pedal down to make some time
There's something good waitin' down this road
I'm pickin' up whatever's mine
[Chorus]
I'm runnin' down a dream that never would've come to me
Workin' on a mystery, goin' wherever it leads
Runnin' down a dream
Yeah, I'm runnin' down a dream that never would've come to me
Workin' on a mystery, goin' wherever it leads
I'm runnin' down a dream
Purple, but not Full Circle.
